Sorry I haven't been around for a while, I didn't forget about blogging I'm just not really good at sticking with anything for very long SORRY! I'm working on trying to change that through my journey so I'm back after 4 days.
Lets see since I've last blogged I went through a bad bout with depression. Me and my bf got into it again which is not not unusual but this time I thought it was for real over. I used to have a slight problem with pain pills. I would only use them when I needed them but when I did need them I took them a bit longer than I really needed to. I loved the feeling I got from them, the warm and fuzzy feeling and some even made me race around with tons of energy. I just always seemed to feel good and happy!
I honestly didn't want to take any pain meds when I had my kidney stones but I HAD to get relief so I took the bare minimum. When me and the bf got into it I just wanted to sleep so I took out the bottle of left over pain meds and took one that night and woke up the next morning and took more so I would sleep all day. I stopped after that morning and said I wasn't going to hurt my body just because I was unhappy.
Luckily for me I stopped when I did b/c last friday 9/25, I had an IUD placed (since I've heard that a raw vegan lifestyle will make you more fertile) and I was told to take some Advil or Tylenol before I came. Well I have a very high pain tolerance so I have been dealing with my horrible cramps without assistance from meds so I could do the IUD placement without assistance too. O boy was I WRONG! I passed out from the pain and was very sick from it. After an hour of waiting around at the dr's office dealing with nausea and multiple BM's and sweats I drove home. I had to pull over twice to vomit but as soon as I made it home I had to take something b/c this pain was so unbearable. I was chilling at this point and my lips were purple. I went ahead and took more of my pain meds I had left over from the kidney stones.
The pain finally came under control after I fell asleep for about 2 hours. I finished off the rest of my pain meds and for the past few days I have been taking ibuprofen. Today I did not take anything as my cramps are starting to taper off to the point I can handle them on my own.
My face looks awful. I know its from the meds! I'm breaking out so bad and I know its just the meds exiting my body but I've started putting on make-up. Its been almost a month or over a month since my face has started breaking out and I'm just over it.
I have been experimenting with more vegan dishes like mock chicken salad and tofu dishes. I'm starting to feel like I'm drifting away from my goal. I feel like I need to be experimenting more with raw food dishes than with vegan dishes. Plus the mock chicken salad and tofu dishes are way too heavy for me anyway.
Today I started to get that feeling that I used to have when I was 17. If you don't know 17 was my best year ever, idk why but I was so happy, so carefree, and loving life. I would act a fool all the time but it wasn't out of control, it was just having good fun all the time. I always looked for things to go right and for the slightest thing positive out of every situation. I was always in a good mood and smiling, I would bring sunshine everywhere I went, hence the nickname sunshine. I woke up and was excited about life in general. I was either mellow happy or just out right excited and very rarely was I ever in a bad mood for any reason. My bf at the time always said I was always celebrating life and I could see the beauty in everything. Another friend said I had such a zeal for life that he has never seen before in anyone. Today I felt that again, it felt sooooooo good.
I'm not sure if I've had a hormone imbalance and that is why I've been so unhappy and so pissy at work and just blah all the time. I mean I've been better since the MC and the diet change but not exactly back to ME. People at work have been confronting me for a little while now saying I have a bad attitude problem everyday with everyone and I don't see it, but now I sort of do. I see that I've been taking my job way too seriously and that I need to relax. I also need to not take life so seriously, I used to be so happy and I would let things just roll off my back, I would hardly ever stress over ANYTHING. I know when to take things seriously but to stress over anything wasn't worth it.
This IUD puts off progesterone and today I've felt like the real me so I'm wondering if the IUD has anything to do with the way I feel. I'm loving the way I feel right now and I hope its not just one of those one out of a million perfect days where I feel like the real me then tomorrow go back to not being happy again.
I'll update tomorrow and let you know!
Monday, September 28, 2009
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Day 38
Today's Eats:
Spinach freshness smoothie 24 oz (1c packed spinach, 6 frozen strawberries, 1 banana, 1 orange, 1c ice) YUMMY!!! This is my favorite yet!
3 BBQ flax crackers
Handful of veggie chips
1 can Amy's spicy vegan chili
Spinach freshness smoothie 24 oz (1c packed spinach, 6 frozen strawberries, 1 banana, 1 orange, 1c ice) YUMMY!!! This is my favorite yet!
3 BBQ flax crackers
Handful of veggie chips
1 can Amy's spicy vegan chili
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
Day 37
Its now 9:22 pm and I just had my first BM of the day. Man, why does pain medication have to stop you up so bad!! Anyway, I'm still raggin' and my cramps were awful last night at work!! I was weak and dizzy all night and really didn't want to be there but I seriously needed the money and it was my only day I got to work this week (since I missed my first two days on the schedule due to my lovely kidney stones). I took my pain meds just in case something crazy decided to happen and I almost cut one in half to take just to ease my cramps a little b/c they were out of control!!!!!!!!!
I toughed it out and decided it would be a lot better on my body if I didn't do any more damage with pain medication and let it heal itself. Today my cramps are bearable! YAY!!
Since I'm not quite regular I still don't have the need to eat much so I haven't forced anything. I did notice today that my chest has completely cleared up from the breakouts and all that is left is some hyperpigmentation. My forehead, on the other hand, still looks like connect the dots; just without the numbers LOL.
Today's Eats:
Victoria's Favorite Dark Green Smoothie 24 oz (1 bunch dandelion greens, 4 roma tomatoes, 3c water) REMIND ME TO NEVER DRINK THIS AGAIN YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not sure how much pure water yet, not sure what time I'm going to bed
4 BBQ flax seed crackers
1 medium mixed green salad with chopped mushrooms, chopped onions, 1 carrot stick, 1/2 avocado and Braggs.
a few "scoops" with salsa
1 apple with almond butter
I toughed it out and decided it would be a lot better on my body if I didn't do any more damage with pain medication and let it heal itself. Today my cramps are bearable! YAY!!
Since I'm not quite regular I still don't have the need to eat much so I haven't forced anything. I did notice today that my chest has completely cleared up from the breakouts and all that is left is some hyperpigmentation. My forehead, on the other hand, still looks like connect the dots; just without the numbers LOL.
Today's Eats:
Victoria's Favorite Dark Green Smoothie 24 oz (1 bunch dandelion greens, 4 roma tomatoes, 3c water) REMIND ME TO NEVER DRINK THIS AGAIN YUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Not sure how much pure water yet, not sure what time I'm going to bed
4 BBQ flax seed crackers
1 medium mixed green salad with chopped mushrooms, chopped onions, 1 carrot stick, 1/2 avocado and Braggs.
a few "scoops" with salsa
1 apple with almond butter
Day 36
Well now that the stone has passed and all the pain meds have entered my clean body, now comes the constipation. By the end of my morning smoothie I have usually eliminated at least 2 or 3 times but so far I have not eliminated anything in 2 days. Even on the 20th before my ER visit I had 3 BM's and then vomited all my morning smoothie (sorry TMI).
So Today I drank some laxative tea I had left over from my MC before I laid down to go to bed (well nap) before going into work.
When I woke up nothing..............after my smoothie............nothing....................up until 1 am.............nothing. But finally around 2 am I strained and strained and finally had a BM and boy did it hurt. It was hard and felt like needles. I only had one large BM though and that was it.
I wasn't really all that hungry at work for some reason, I guess b/c I'm backed up and until I get regular I'm not gonna feel like eating anything.
Today's Eats:
Smoothie 24 oz
80+ oz of pure water
homemade trail mix (handful of soaked almonds, handful of sea veggies, handful of dehydrated veggie chips, 2 BBQ flax crackers)
1 Medium mixed green salad with 1/2 avocado, chopped mushrooms, chopped onions, 1 carrot stick, 3 cherry tomatoes and Braggs.
When I got home (which today was late 8am, and which I never eat past 4am) I had an add water and seasoning packet and throw in the microwave hot and sour soup with rice noodles bowl.
So Today I drank some laxative tea I had left over from my MC before I laid down to go to bed (well nap) before going into work.
When I woke up nothing..............after my smoothie............nothing....................up until 1 am.............nothing. But finally around 2 am I strained and strained and finally had a BM and boy did it hurt. It was hard and felt like needles. I only had one large BM though and that was it.
I wasn't really all that hungry at work for some reason, I guess b/c I'm backed up and until I get regular I'm not gonna feel like eating anything.
Today's Eats:
Smoothie 24 oz
80+ oz of pure water
homemade trail mix (handful of soaked almonds, handful of sea veggies, handful of dehydrated veggie chips, 2 BBQ flax crackers)
1 Medium mixed green salad with 1/2 avocado, chopped mushrooms, chopped onions, 1 carrot stick, 3 cherry tomatoes and Braggs.
When I got home (which today was late 8am, and which I never eat past 4am) I had an add water and seasoning packet and throw in the microwave hot and sour soup with rice noodles bowl.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Day 35 - The Recovery
Well after one hellova night I have slept most of the day today. The pain meds have really helped even though I REALLY don't want to take them!! I have to urinate in a strainer and I think I passed the whole stone. It was black and really hard but it was so small. I don't see how something so small can cause so much pain. I still haven't found anything about the way I eat and how to deal or prevent kidney stones; I'm still looking though.
I was hesitant about drinking my green smoothie today b/c of one thing I read was that the green smoothie causes stones and also it's what I puked up all night last night. Well I know my green smoothies are good for me so I went ahead and made one anyway. It made like 40 oz and I broke it up into 3 drinks instead of 2 like I usually do. I'm just going to sip on them all day.
I wish I could have waited till today so the stone would have passed to save a bunch of money on the ER bill with the Dr. and the lab work, the IV and the CT but I was on the floor with pain and didn't know what was wrong so I guess it's a good thing I went ahead.
Update: I've done really well today, no more pain and I've been able to eat normally and keep it down.
Today's Eats:
Tropical Smoothie (2c spinach leaves, 1 mango, 1 banana, 1c pineapple, 2c water)
80+ oz pure water
1 medium mixed green salad w/ 1/2 avocado, chopped mushrooms, chopped onions and braggs (I'm chilling out on the tomatoes too) w/ a handful of soaked almonds
1 serving of vegan spinach noodles w/ 9 roasted garlic triscuits and a small handful of veggie chips
In other words since I've slept so much today I have eaten my snacks and meals at the same time and only eaten 3 times today.
I was hesitant about drinking my green smoothie today b/c of one thing I read was that the green smoothie causes stones and also it's what I puked up all night last night. Well I know my green smoothies are good for me so I went ahead and made one anyway. It made like 40 oz and I broke it up into 3 drinks instead of 2 like I usually do. I'm just going to sip on them all day.
I wish I could have waited till today so the stone would have passed to save a bunch of money on the ER bill with the Dr. and the lab work, the IV and the CT but I was on the floor with pain and didn't know what was wrong so I guess it's a good thing I went ahead.
Update: I've done really well today, no more pain and I've been able to eat normally and keep it down.
Today's Eats:
Tropical Smoothie (2c spinach leaves, 1 mango, 1 banana, 1c pineapple, 2c water)
80+ oz pure water
1 medium mixed green salad w/ 1/2 avocado, chopped mushrooms, chopped onions and braggs (I'm chilling out on the tomatoes too) w/ a handful of soaked almonds
1 serving of vegan spinach noodles w/ 9 roasted garlic triscuits and a small handful of veggie chips
In other words since I've slept so much today I have eaten my snacks and meals at the same time and only eaten 3 times today.
Day 34 - MY ER visit
I started my day off normally today with my usual green smoothie. I had gotten up and polished off the last 1/2 of the Dancing Dandelion smoothie I had yesterday.
I was sure I started my period today so I plugged and it hurt and I started getting some pain in my right side and some weird feeling in the downstairs area. So I took out my tampon and put in another..........the same thing happened so I just removed it permanently. As the night went on I was attempting to get ready for work and the pain in my side just kept getting worse and worse. The pain got so bad I fell to my knees and had a VERY hard time getting up. My grandmother had to rush me to the ER. Once we got there she had to put me into a wheelchair b/c I was unable to walk.
I was just hoping the pain in my sides was temporary and would go away for good instead of escalating to this.
I wanted to refuse any kind of medication but I was in excruciating pain and even though I tried to research pain in my side on a raw food diet I couldn't take the pain any longer and my search results were not helping, mainly b/c I didn't know what was going on.
I received an IV with a bag of fluids and they hit me up with some nausea and pain medicine. btw the pain got so bad I started vomiting. They did a CT on my lower abdomen and found a kidney stone which was well on its way of passing b/c of the position of the stone. They also found a cyst on my left ovary...........its been there for about 5 years or more, its harmless and that's why I haven't gotten it removed.
Today when I woke up I started researching kidney stones and a raw food diet...............not good. I did find some great natural remedies to use for my next kidney stone. Even though I have NEVER had kidney stones in my life, from what I've researched you are prone to get more when you are on a raw food diet, and this is probably the reason for my odd side pain that goes from one side to the next. Maybe b/c I'm not 100% raw, or something. I don't know what to think, I don't want to give up on raw or vegan but I'm hearing all this negative that its b/c I eat too many green leafy vegetables and that is over doing it on the calcium. But how can something so good cause something so bad and painful? I don't even think I get enough greens as it is. So I'd really like to know where this is coming from.
Oh, and my period stopped, so maybe I was just spotting again or the trauma from the stone caused it to stop. I'm doing a lot more research on these stones and a raw food diet, I'll keep posted as to my findings.
Today's Eats:
Last 1/2 of Dancing Dandelion smoothie from yesterday
this was all I had today and even this got thrown up at the hospital.
I was sure I started my period today so I plugged and it hurt and I started getting some pain in my right side and some weird feeling in the downstairs area. So I took out my tampon and put in another..........the same thing happened so I just removed it permanently. As the night went on I was attempting to get ready for work and the pain in my side just kept getting worse and worse. The pain got so bad I fell to my knees and had a VERY hard time getting up. My grandmother had to rush me to the ER. Once we got there she had to put me into a wheelchair b/c I was unable to walk.
I was just hoping the pain in my sides was temporary and would go away for good instead of escalating to this.
I wanted to refuse any kind of medication but I was in excruciating pain and even though I tried to research pain in my side on a raw food diet I couldn't take the pain any longer and my search results were not helping, mainly b/c I didn't know what was going on.
I received an IV with a bag of fluids and they hit me up with some nausea and pain medicine. btw the pain got so bad I started vomiting. They did a CT on my lower abdomen and found a kidney stone which was well on its way of passing b/c of the position of the stone. They also found a cyst on my left ovary...........its been there for about 5 years or more, its harmless and that's why I haven't gotten it removed.
Today when I woke up I started researching kidney stones and a raw food diet...............not good. I did find some great natural remedies to use for my next kidney stone. Even though I have NEVER had kidney stones in my life, from what I've researched you are prone to get more when you are on a raw food diet, and this is probably the reason for my odd side pain that goes from one side to the next. Maybe b/c I'm not 100% raw, or something. I don't know what to think, I don't want to give up on raw or vegan but I'm hearing all this negative that its b/c I eat too many green leafy vegetables and that is over doing it on the calcium. But how can something so good cause something so bad and painful? I don't even think I get enough greens as it is. So I'd really like to know where this is coming from.
Oh, and my period stopped, so maybe I was just spotting again or the trauma from the stone caused it to stop. I'm doing a lot more research on these stones and a raw food diet, I'll keep posted as to my findings.
Today's Eats:
Last 1/2 of Dancing Dandelion smoothie from yesterday
this was all I had today and even this got thrown up at the hospital.
Day 33 - the Fish experiment and total vegan day
Today's Eats:
36 oz Dancing Dandelion Smoothie
Handful of soaked almonds
1 serving of artichoke wild rice with hot sauce
1 serving of beet salad
1 medium salad with mixed greens, spinach leaves, chopped mushrooms, chopped onions 1 leaf of kale, 1 carrot stick and Braggs with 2 medium BBQ flax crackers
1 handful of sea vegetables and wusabe chips
1 serving of artichoke wild rice with hot sauce
1 serving beet salad
1 1/2 serving of shrimp salad with vegannaise and dill
Today was a day I just totally Vegged out on all vegan, the only raw I had today was my green smoothie. When I went to bed last night I tossed and turned all night long, had night sweats and night terrors. Either it was because I totally OVERATE or the fact I ate shrimp just to see what it would do to me now or a combination of both. I was pissy when I woke up and I swear I will never eat meat again, not even for fun just to see what it will do!!!
36 oz Dancing Dandelion Smoothie
Handful of soaked almonds
1 serving of artichoke wild rice with hot sauce
1 serving of beet salad
1 medium salad with mixed greens, spinach leaves, chopped mushrooms, chopped onions 1 leaf of kale, 1 carrot stick and Braggs with 2 medium BBQ flax crackers
1 handful of sea vegetables and wusabe chips
1 serving of artichoke wild rice with hot sauce
1 serving beet salad
1 1/2 serving of shrimp salad with vegannaise and dill
Today was a day I just totally Vegged out on all vegan, the only raw I had today was my green smoothie. When I went to bed last night I tossed and turned all night long, had night sweats and night terrors. Either it was because I totally OVERATE or the fact I ate shrimp just to see what it would do to me now or a combination of both. I was pissy when I woke up and I swear I will never eat meat again, not even for fun just to see what it will do!!!
Day 32 - First time eating out
Not too much to eat today, I went 6 hours between my morning smoothie and lunch!! Fasting feels good sometimes, ya know. I was out running errands and didn't want to buy anything from some fast food place, especially when I have plenty at home to eat.
Today's eats:
24 oz smoothie
1/2 of big salad I made yesterday with avocado and Braggs
1 medium BBQ flax cracker and a few soaked almonds
1 hand full of veggie chips
chips and salsa and 1 vegetarian fajita
We went to Amigo Mexican restaurant tonight and I searched the menu over for something to eat. I had it in my head all I was going to eat was a guacamole salad (its their side dish that comes with all their main dishes) lettuce, tomato, rice and beans. I had them to hold the cheese over the beans and honestly I got full off the chips and salsa. When the main dish came out it was HUGE and I could only eat one small fajitas. Not only was I already full but the nastiness they saute all the veggies in is WAY too heavy for my stomach. I felt heavy, sick and just wanted to throw up and lay down. So next time we go I'm sticking to my guacamole salad.........it will definitely sit better!
Today's eats:
24 oz smoothie
1/2 of big salad I made yesterday with avocado and Braggs
1 medium BBQ flax cracker and a few soaked almonds
1 hand full of veggie chips
chips and salsa and 1 vegetarian fajita
We went to Amigo Mexican restaurant tonight and I searched the menu over for something to eat. I had it in my head all I was going to eat was a guacamole salad (its their side dish that comes with all their main dishes) lettuce, tomato, rice and beans. I had them to hold the cheese over the beans and honestly I got full off the chips and salsa. When the main dish came out it was HUGE and I could only eat one small fajitas. Not only was I already full but the nastiness they saute all the veggies in is WAY too heavy for my stomach. I felt heavy, sick and just wanted to throw up and lay down. So next time we go I'm sticking to my guacamole salad.........it will definitely sit better!
Thursday, September 17, 2009
Day 31
After my crazy night of freaking out over nothing I decided to make a plan of eating, so I did. I've decided that I need to structure my eating habits to say away from compulsive eating. Here is what I've come up with: Eat 3 meals a day with 4 snacks in between. Meals are to be eaten 3 hours apart and snacks in between (with at least an hour between feedings). The last feeding should be at least 4 hours before bed time. Since I work 3rd shift this is what my night will look like:
6p Breakfast - smoothie
8p Snack - piece of fruit
9p Lunch - Mixed salad w/ 1/2 avocado
10/11p Snack - pick -a- snack
12 midnight Supper - Vegan dish
1/2a Snack - pick -a- snack
3a Snack - pick -a- snack
PICK -A- Snack List (no more than a handful: regular not bulging)
carrot sticks
celery sticks
pre soaked almonds
pre soaked cashews
veggie chips
fruit chips
fresh fruit
Today I decided to do something different with my salad. What I have been doing is taking a 7 cup bowl and loading it up with greens (packed) and additives (onions, mushrooms, etc....) but today I took my 7 cup bowl and loaded it up with greens (not packed just loosely), threw it in a HUGE mixing bowl then added all my goodies (in the same amount I usually would). Then mixed it up by hand real good. I dished out enough to fill the 7 cup bowl loosely. Last, I cut up an avocado and threw 1/2 on top of my salad then added my Braggs dressing. Guess what? I had enough left over for tomorrow's salad AND it's pre-made and I just cut my portion size in half, how bout them apples!! I feel like I've accomplished something today, YAY!! O, yeah, I about forgot I'm soaking some almonds and cashews today for the first time, I found a chart online and for almonds its says to soak 3c dry almonds for 8-12 hours and 3c dry cashews for 2-3 hours. Well I didn't have 3c all I had was 2c of each so what I did was took 1c at a time and pour into a 1 liter glass jar then added water so now I have 2 glasses of almonds and 2 glasses of cashew's soaking on my counter, they are pretty LOL. I'm not sure if the lid is supposed to be on but I put it on anyway.
Today's Eats:
Last 1/2 of my Dent De Lion smoothie from yesterday
70+oz pure water
Medium mixed green salad w/ chopped kale, chopped baby bella mushrooms, chopped green onions, 2 large cherry tomatoes, 1 medium roma tomato, 1/2 large avocado and Braggs dressing
Small hand full of soaked cashew's and one medium BBQ flax cracker
Vegan hot and sour soup
6p Breakfast - smoothie
8p Snack - piece of fruit
9p Lunch - Mixed salad w/ 1/2 avocado
10/11p Snack - pick -a- snack
12 midnight Supper - Vegan dish
1/2a Snack - pick -a- snack
3a Snack - pick -a- snack
PICK -A- Snack List (no more than a handful: regular not bulging)
carrot sticks
celery sticks
pre soaked almonds
pre soaked cashews
veggie chips
fruit chips
fresh fruit
Today I decided to do something different with my salad. What I have been doing is taking a 7 cup bowl and loading it up with greens (packed) and additives (onions, mushrooms, etc....) but today I took my 7 cup bowl and loaded it up with greens (not packed just loosely), threw it in a HUGE mixing bowl then added all my goodies (in the same amount I usually would). Then mixed it up by hand real good. I dished out enough to fill the 7 cup bowl loosely. Last, I cut up an avocado and threw 1/2 on top of my salad then added my Braggs dressing. Guess what? I had enough left over for tomorrow's salad AND it's pre-made and I just cut my portion size in half, how bout them apples!! I feel like I've accomplished something today, YAY!! O, yeah, I about forgot I'm soaking some almonds and cashews today for the first time, I found a chart online and for almonds its says to soak 3c dry almonds for 8-12 hours and 3c dry cashews for 2-3 hours. Well I didn't have 3c all I had was 2c of each so what I did was took 1c at a time and pour into a 1 liter glass jar then added water so now I have 2 glasses of almonds and 2 glasses of cashew's soaking on my counter, they are pretty LOL. I'm not sure if the lid is supposed to be on but I put it on anyway.
Today's Eats:
Last 1/2 of my Dent De Lion smoothie from yesterday
70+oz pure water
Medium mixed green salad w/ chopped kale, chopped baby bella mushrooms, chopped green onions, 2 large cherry tomatoes, 1 medium roma tomato, 1/2 large avocado and Braggs dressing
Small hand full of soaked cashew's and one medium BBQ flax cracker
Vegan hot and sour soup
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Update on day 30
So I've been sitting here reading up on the ye ole raw food/living lifestyle. Everyone seems to have a different "truth" as to where most of your calories come from, some say from fruits, others say from fats to be able to sustain raw veganism long term. SO WHICH IS IT?????????????? I suppose it's just like any other "diet" that everyone has their own opinion of the truth but what is the REAL truth?? I've read that you don't need to count calories on a raw vegan diet and then I read somewhere else that you do, then you need to limit your intake of sweet fruits, then you need to limit your intake of fats like nut, seeds, and avocados. Better yet I've read that you should avoid processing any of your foods to make more complex dishes and eat all your raw foods whole....................SERIOUSLY????????????? That takes all the fun out of raw food and it would get very boring very quickly!!
Sometimes I think I'm too smart for my own good. I read and research and read and research some more b/c I like to have a good range of information as I go through any process or big change like this and I like to be well informed but now I'm just down right CONFUSED!!
So keeping that in mind and thinking "well maybe that's why I haven't lost any more weight is b/c I'm not getting enough calories and my body is holding onto all my fat" but as I type that I just thought maybe my body is holding onto all that fat b/c I'm not getting enough fat.........................delema ey! Anyway I thought that I wasn't getting enough calories so I decided to eat a serving of spinach noodles and a carrot. Then I went to a website called calorie count.com and tallied up my calories just for today............HOLY CRAP I'm already up to 1800 and I set up a profile and it says I only need 1600. But as I write everything out I notice most of my calories come from fruit, in some opinions this is good but others this is bad............HELP if you have any suggestions please let me know b/c I'm driving myself crazy right now. Maybe I shouldn't be such a perfectionist huh LOL I just want whats best and what can actually sustain!
Sometimes I think I'm too smart for my own good. I read and research and read and research some more b/c I like to have a good range of information as I go through any process or big change like this and I like to be well informed but now I'm just down right CONFUSED!!
So keeping that in mind and thinking "well maybe that's why I haven't lost any more weight is b/c I'm not getting enough calories and my body is holding onto all my fat" but as I type that I just thought maybe my body is holding onto all that fat b/c I'm not getting enough fat.........................delema ey! Anyway I thought that I wasn't getting enough calories so I decided to eat a serving of spinach noodles and a carrot. Then I went to a website called calorie count.com and tallied up my calories just for today............HOLY CRAP I'm already up to 1800 and I set up a profile and it says I only need 1600. But as I write everything out I notice most of my calories come from fruit, in some opinions this is good but others this is bad............HELP if you have any suggestions please let me know b/c I'm driving myself crazy right now. Maybe I shouldn't be such a perfectionist huh LOL I just want whats best and what can actually sustain!
Day 30
Got on the scale this morning and nothing...........I'm holding steady at 165.8. I decided that since it was nasty outside today and I had a TON of errands to run after work (which put me getting into bed at 1 this afternoon when I'm always in bed no later than 8 in the morning) that I'm only going to do my green smoothie today and no food. I don't need much anyway b/c I'm not going to be up long. I have been making a different smoothie everyday and trying to experiment with different things and so far its working out great!! I have been spending SOOOOO much money on groceries though it's killing me. I have had to put my bills on the back burner so I can eat right and I'm getting terribly behind!! Ok lets just see here: Friday I went to the corner fruit stand $17 and Greenlife $43. Saturday Fresh Market $60, then today Greenlife again $60 so total for 2 weeks $180 OUCH!!
Anyway I promised myself that I would put my health first and put good healthy food first above all b/c if I don't have my health I don't have work, if I don't have work I don't have money and you know the rest!! I may not see the BIG picture everyday but I know that in the long run I'm going to be better off. I will save a TON on medical bills and RX and possibly save myself a hospital stay from some kind of funky virus or worse.
O speaking of funky.........the funk on my foot it comes and goes but not like usual, it is getting lighter and now I think I'm obsessed over it b/c I catch myself looking at it ALL the time now just to see if its making any progress of going away lol.
I'm still having those sudden pains in my side but not as often as I was and I haven't figured out what triggers it. At first I was thinking it was when I was eating my dehydrated veggie chips but today I had a pain after having 1/2 my monster smoothie, so IDK I just hope they quit!
I had an issue with my BM's today and last night. I usually have a BM when I wake up then after I have my smoothie I have another (which is about 30 min to an hour apart) and I might have another during the night at work. I never strain and it comes very easily and naturally and looks like my smoothies just a pile of green fluff (TMI I know, sorry). Last night at work I kept feeling like I had to go but just couldn't push anything out then about 9:30 this morning I strained so hard I thought I hurt myself but managed to squeeze some out but it was hard and I seriously thought I was impacted, like maybe from the chili I ate. Once I got home I honestly thought about doing a salt water flush...........yeah, you know its bad when you consider that one on your own!! But I felt the need to go and it finally came out, I was "backed up" though b/c once I pushed out the really hard stuff the rest was normal and I've had a BM about every hour since I've been up (so far its been 4 BM's) and they are all large ones.
My breakouts are seriously getting better but not completely gone. I have noticed that the blackheads never did reappear on my cheeks, nose and chin YAY!! My fingernails have never grown strong b/c as a kid I've always bitten my nails up until a few years ago. Now these suckers are STRONG and I've actually scratched myself a few times on accident and it hurt! lol. I love it but they aren't even long yet they are still short, they don't even come above the skin yet and I'm already injuring myself LOL.
Today's Eats:
Dent De Lion Smoothie (1 bunch dandelion greens, 2 mangoes, 2c fresh apple juice, 2 pears, 1c water)
Ok lets talk about this smoothie for a minute here. This sucker took me almost an hour to prepare b/c I had to break out the Green Star just for a few apples and if you own one of these you COMPLETELY understand the frustration of cleaning this monster over a few apples. Anyway I'm chopping away and I realize my poor Black and Decker blender is almost overflowing. So I blend everything up and I literally had to dump some out so I could add 1c of ice (I do this b/c I like a cold smoothie and without the ice it just taste warm even though I keep everything cold) so I break out my big 64 oz jug with a straw (the same one i used for my salt water flush during the MC) and it almost filled the whole thing up!! This is the biggest smoothie I have ever made. This smoothie actually did yield what it said it would which is 2 qts b/c so far all the smoothies I make only yield like maybe 24oz
Besides the HUGE smoothie and my normal amount of pure water I've had 2 BBQ flax crackers and water and that's all folks
Anyway I promised myself that I would put my health first and put good healthy food first above all b/c if I don't have my health I don't have work, if I don't have work I don't have money and you know the rest!! I may not see the BIG picture everyday but I know that in the long run I'm going to be better off. I will save a TON on medical bills and RX and possibly save myself a hospital stay from some kind of funky virus or worse.
O speaking of funky.........the funk on my foot it comes and goes but not like usual, it is getting lighter and now I think I'm obsessed over it b/c I catch myself looking at it ALL the time now just to see if its making any progress of going away lol.
I'm still having those sudden pains in my side but not as often as I was and I haven't figured out what triggers it. At first I was thinking it was when I was eating my dehydrated veggie chips but today I had a pain after having 1/2 my monster smoothie, so IDK I just hope they quit!
I had an issue with my BM's today and last night. I usually have a BM when I wake up then after I have my smoothie I have another (which is about 30 min to an hour apart) and I might have another during the night at work. I never strain and it comes very easily and naturally and looks like my smoothies just a pile of green fluff (TMI I know, sorry). Last night at work I kept feeling like I had to go but just couldn't push anything out then about 9:30 this morning I strained so hard I thought I hurt myself but managed to squeeze some out but it was hard and I seriously thought I was impacted, like maybe from the chili I ate. Once I got home I honestly thought about doing a salt water flush...........yeah, you know its bad when you consider that one on your own!! But I felt the need to go and it finally came out, I was "backed up" though b/c once I pushed out the really hard stuff the rest was normal and I've had a BM about every hour since I've been up (so far its been 4 BM's) and they are all large ones.
My breakouts are seriously getting better but not completely gone. I have noticed that the blackheads never did reappear on my cheeks, nose and chin YAY!! My fingernails have never grown strong b/c as a kid I've always bitten my nails up until a few years ago. Now these suckers are STRONG and I've actually scratched myself a few times on accident and it hurt! lol. I love it but they aren't even long yet they are still short, they don't even come above the skin yet and I'm already injuring myself LOL.
Today's Eats:
Dent De Lion Smoothie (1 bunch dandelion greens, 2 mangoes, 2c fresh apple juice, 2 pears, 1c water)
Ok lets talk about this smoothie for a minute here. This sucker took me almost an hour to prepare b/c I had to break out the Green Star just for a few apples and if you own one of these you COMPLETELY understand the frustration of cleaning this monster over a few apples. Anyway I'm chopping away and I realize my poor Black and Decker blender is almost overflowing. So I blend everything up and I literally had to dump some out so I could add 1c of ice (I do this b/c I like a cold smoothie and without the ice it just taste warm even though I keep everything cold) so I break out my big 64 oz jug with a straw (the same one i used for my salt water flush during the MC) and it almost filled the whole thing up!! This is the biggest smoothie I have ever made. This smoothie actually did yield what it said it would which is 2 qts b/c so far all the smoothies I make only yield like maybe 24oz
Besides the HUGE smoothie and my normal amount of pure water I've had 2 BBQ flax crackers and water and that's all folks
Day 29
For the last 3 days at work I've had real good energy but for the most part I don't feel "light" like I have been. I feel heavy and weighed down. I feel like all I've done is eat! I've been eating even when I'm not hungry and when I get the first little feeling of hunger I run to eat. I pack enough for 2 meals and 2 snacks and I don't buy extra at work. It's not a whole lot of food but I've gone back to my habitual eating habits of stuffing my face constantly. I was hoping the MC would take care of that but apparently not. I've been off the MC for almost 10 days now and I've not dropped any weight at all which is very depressing since I've sustained 85-95% raw vegan. I have a feeling it's because I'm shoving more food into my body than it can handle. I have GOT to start listening to my body again and waiting until I'm hungry. Even though I do only eat every 3 hours I make every excuse to eat and that proves I still have traits of a food addiction. I'm afraid it will lead to waiving back to the SAD (Standard American Diet). I'm strong willed but I want to tame this addiction before it tames me and brings me back to the old me that I DON'T EVER want to see again!!
Today's Eats:
Parsley Passion Smoothie (1 bunch fresh parsley, 1 cucumber peeled, 1 fuji apple, 1 banana, 1-2c water)
70+ oz pure water
Few dehydrated fruit chips and veggie chips
3 forks full of Pad Thai vegan noodles and 1 can of Amy's No Chicken Noodle vegan soup (not too shabby)
1 Orksi coconut bar (won't be eating one of these for a long time its has: 264 cal, 16.9 g total fat/14.8 g being sat. fat, 14.8 g sugar, 27 g carb) and all it has in it is coconuts 50% and rice syrup.
1 Large (7 cup) mixed green salad w/ 1 whole leaf kale, added spinach, chopped green onions, baby bella mushrooms, tomatoes, Braggs
Few more dehydrated fruit chips
Last 1/2 of Parsley Passion Smoothie and .36lb Artichoke Wild Rice (I went grocery shopping after work and was starving so I went to their deli) It has: wild rice, green peas, artichoke, roasted red pepper, canola oil, balsamic vinegar, tarragon, dijon mustard, pepper, salt. VERY YUMMY!!
Today's Eats:
Parsley Passion Smoothie (1 bunch fresh parsley, 1 cucumber peeled, 1 fuji apple, 1 banana, 1-2c water)
70+ oz pure water
Few dehydrated fruit chips and veggie chips
3 forks full of Pad Thai vegan noodles and 1 can of Amy's No Chicken Noodle vegan soup (not too shabby)
1 Orksi coconut bar (won't be eating one of these for a long time its has: 264 cal, 16.9 g total fat/14.8 g being sat. fat, 14.8 g sugar, 27 g carb) and all it has in it is coconuts 50% and rice syrup.
1 Large (7 cup) mixed green salad w/ 1 whole leaf kale, added spinach, chopped green onions, baby bella mushrooms, tomatoes, Braggs
Few more dehydrated fruit chips
Last 1/2 of Parsley Passion Smoothie and .36lb Artichoke Wild Rice (I went grocery shopping after work and was starving so I went to their deli) It has: wild rice, green peas, artichoke, roasted red pepper, canola oil, balsamic vinegar, tarragon, dijon mustard, pepper, salt. VERY YUMMY!!
Day 28 - First Canned food.........and first Almond butter
Today's eats:
Every Morning Smoothie (2c spinach, 1 banana, 2c fresh oj, 1c blueberries (supposed to be frozen but they were just cold), 1c strawberries (supposed to be cold but were frozen so it worked out) The name fits b/c if I could I would have this EVERY morning!!
1 small apple with almond butter (Very impressed, I actually like it better than peanut butter)
1 can Amy's spicy vegan chili..........THIS STUFF ROCKS
1 avocado w/Celtic sea salt
Large mixed green salad w/ baby bella mushrooms, chopped green onions, (something new here: 1/2 leaf chopped kale), tomatoes, Braggs
Last 1/2 of Every Morning Smoothie
This was my first Canned food since the MC and I was sort of scared but it was GREAT!!
Every Morning Smoothie (2c spinach, 1 banana, 2c fresh oj, 1c blueberries (supposed to be frozen but they were just cold), 1c strawberries (supposed to be cold but were frozen so it worked out) The name fits b/c if I could I would have this EVERY morning!!
1 small apple with almond butter (Very impressed, I actually like it better than peanut butter)
1 can Amy's spicy vegan chili..........THIS STUFF ROCKS
1 avocado w/Celtic sea salt
Large mixed green salad w/ baby bella mushrooms, chopped green onions, (something new here: 1/2 leaf chopped kale), tomatoes, Braggs
Last 1/2 of Every Morning Smoothie
This was my first Canned food since the MC and I was sort of scared but it was GREAT!!
Day 27
Today's eats:
Green Julius smoothie (1 1/2 c fresh oj, 2c ice, 2 large mangos, 2c fresh parsley or spinach (i used parsley)
70+ oz pure water
whole qt sized ziplock bag of veggie chips
mixed green salad w/ chopped green onions, sliced baby bella mushrooms, tomatoes, Braggs
1 medium orange
Last 1/2 of green Julius
4 forks full of spinach noodles
4 flax crackers (mexican harvest) w/ fresh guacamole
When I work I'm just going to post what I ate for that day unless something big changes due to the time restraint but i always catch back up :-)
Green Julius smoothie (1 1/2 c fresh oj, 2c ice, 2 large mangos, 2c fresh parsley or spinach (i used parsley)
70+ oz pure water
whole qt sized ziplock bag of veggie chips
mixed green salad w/ chopped green onions, sliced baby bella mushrooms, tomatoes, Braggs
1 medium orange
Last 1/2 of green Julius
4 forks full of spinach noodles
4 flax crackers (mexican harvest) w/ fresh guacamole
When I work I'm just going to post what I ate for that day unless something big changes due to the time restraint but i always catch back up :-)
Saturday, September 12, 2009
Day 26
Today was a little tricky b/c we went grocery shopping and for some reason I started craving cheese and pepperoni pizza really bad.............having cravings and going grocery shopping don't mix!!
I refrained but I did give into some roasted herb potatoes. They were roasted with sesame oil and had some dill in there but they were cold, hard and dry. I wasn't impressed at all!!
I started having some pretty severe side/lower back pain today and I can't tell if its my gall bladder or my kidneys but man it bothered me most all day! I'm just glad it went away. It does concern me though b/c since my MC I have been having some sudden sharp pain in the same area and sometimes on the other side. It goes as quickly as it comes so I'm not TOO worried just yet.
My breakouts seem to finally be subsiding, I still look like a pizza but not as bad! Today was a low energy day and I've been a little crabby but I think most of that has been b/c of my side/back pain.
Today's eats:
60+ oz pure water
Parsley smoothie ( 3c cubed cantaloupe, 1 bunch parsley)
2 mexican harvest flax seed crackers with guacamole pico (new dish....COMPLETELY YUMMY!!)
1/2 lb (6 halves) of baby red roasted herb potatoes
4 mexican harvest flax seed crackers with guacamole pico
(a few cherry tomatoes throughout the day)
3 forks full of vegan spinach noodles
1 Dana's Banana's (banana halves dipped in non-dairy chocolate frozen) First sweet food I've had and it wasn't that bad!
I refrained but I did give into some roasted herb potatoes. They were roasted with sesame oil and had some dill in there but they were cold, hard and dry. I wasn't impressed at all!!
I started having some pretty severe side/lower back pain today and I can't tell if its my gall bladder or my kidneys but man it bothered me most all day! I'm just glad it went away. It does concern me though b/c since my MC I have been having some sudden sharp pain in the same area and sometimes on the other side. It goes as quickly as it comes so I'm not TOO worried just yet.
My breakouts seem to finally be subsiding, I still look like a pizza but not as bad! Today was a low energy day and I've been a little crabby but I think most of that has been b/c of my side/back pain.
Today's eats:
60+ oz pure water
Parsley smoothie ( 3c cubed cantaloupe, 1 bunch parsley)
2 mexican harvest flax seed crackers with guacamole pico (new dish....COMPLETELY YUMMY!!)
1/2 lb (6 halves) of baby red roasted herb potatoes
4 mexican harvest flax seed crackers with guacamole pico
(a few cherry tomatoes throughout the day)
3 forks full of vegan spinach noodles
1 Dana's Banana's (banana halves dipped in non-dairy chocolate frozen) First sweet food I've had and it wasn't that bad!
Friday, September 11, 2009
Day 24 and 25
Its been crazy the last few days! I've had to work and I'm just worn OUT!!
I've noticed my breakouts are drying up but only when I wake up. I get like 6 new ones throughout the day and it is still annoying the crap out of me! I stopped using my daily Clinique moisturizer on day 25 and it has seemed to help, I haven't used any moisturizer on my face at all!! I've had plenty of energy and don't want to oversleep anymore!
Lets see on day 24 I had tons of energy!
Day 24 eats:
65 oz pure water
Morning Zing smoothie (1/2 bunch Dandelion greens, 1/2 in ginger root, 1/2 pineapple, 2 stalks celery, 2 peaches)
1 apple with natural peanut butter
Veggie chips
Medium salad with tomatoes and braggs dressing and some vegan noodles
Veggie chips
Day 25 eats: I ate a lot today
70 oz pure water
Parsley passion smoothie (1 bunch parsley, 1 banana, 1 apple, 1 cucumber peeled) this one I shared with my 11 y/o sister and she LOVED it! SHARE THE GREEN MAN!
Vegan spinach noodles
Veggie Chips
Medium salad with tomatoes and Braggs dressing and more vegan spinach noodles (can you tell I love these lol)
1 Orange
Veggie Chips
Drank the other 1/2 of my Parsley Passion.
I've noticed my breakouts are drying up but only when I wake up. I get like 6 new ones throughout the day and it is still annoying the crap out of me! I stopped using my daily Clinique moisturizer on day 25 and it has seemed to help, I haven't used any moisturizer on my face at all!! I've had plenty of energy and don't want to oversleep anymore!
Lets see on day 24 I had tons of energy!
Day 24 eats:
65 oz pure water
Morning Zing smoothie (1/2 bunch Dandelion greens, 1/2 in ginger root, 1/2 pineapple, 2 stalks celery, 2 peaches)
1 apple with natural peanut butter
Veggie chips
Medium salad with tomatoes and braggs dressing and some vegan noodles
Veggie chips
Day 25 eats: I ate a lot today
70 oz pure water
Parsley passion smoothie (1 bunch parsley, 1 banana, 1 apple, 1 cucumber peeled) this one I shared with my 11 y/o sister and she LOVED it! SHARE THE GREEN MAN!
Vegan spinach noodles
Veggie Chips
Medium salad with tomatoes and Braggs dressing and more vegan spinach noodles (can you tell I love these lol)
1 Orange
Veggie Chips
Drank the other 1/2 of my Parsley Passion.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Day 23 Had some processed Vegan dish today, bad move?
Well, well, well another day in the neighborhood!!
I started off my morning with some lemon water and cayenne pepper while I made some fresh orange juice. It was really bitter and next time I think I'm gonna heat it up! I got daring for lunch and decided to have some of those "Birds Eye SteamFresh" veggies in a bag that you just pop in the the microwave and a few vegan dumplings with some spinach noodles. I had a HEAPING plate full and knew I could not eat it all and I didn't want to try either! I chowed down and left about 1/2 on my plate. I felt yucky and weighed down afterward and man did my tummy hurt. Even though I bought one box of dumplings and 3 boxes of noodles I may be throwing them away b/c I seem to do a LOT better with raw than I do with cooked vegan.
I don't really crave anything besides salad so I guess that's a good thing, huh?
I've been really bored today for some reason and can't seem to find anything to keep me preoccupied. I've had food on my mind all day which is not a good thing, so I've been trying to keep myself busy...........its not working so far.
My detox symptoms are still present, by that I mean the zits............AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH the zits!!!! They are going to be the death of me. I look like a pepperoni pizza and can't do ANYTHING about it!! I'll just deal with it until my detox symptoms start to slow down, I have to I have no other choice, right?
Oh, on a good note I'm down to 165!! So I'm still losing weight, YAY!
I made my first green smoothie today too. It was a mango/kale smoothie. It called for one cup of kale, one mango and one cup of water.......said it yielded 1 quart, I think it was a misprint b/c it only gave me 16 oz and I put a whole leaf of kale and not just one cup. It was VERY green and almost too green, I think next time I won't alter the directions so drastically, maybe a half of a leaf instead of the whole thing........but the mango was so big I figured all i would taste was the mango and no green, but i think that was the point LOL.
Its just a trial and error period, just finding out what works and what doesn't. I'm learning and to be honest its sort of fun!!!
Today's Eats:
72 + oz of pure water (throughout the day)
2 whole oranges (juiced)
1 serving of vegan spinach noodles, 1/2 serving of seamfresh veggies, 3 vegan dumplings
1 green smoothie (mango/kale)
2 servings of dehydrated veggie chips
a few cherry tomatoes throughout the day
1 large (not HUGE this time) mixed salad with Braggs salad dressing
P.S.
My dr. called me back today to let me know the results of my papsmear and it was negative but she said I had a little bit of a bacterial infection. I thought for a second and realized that I was right in the middle of my MC when I went for my exam which probably caused the positive bacteria, since it was being released. She said that she was going to call me in a perscription and it was an antibiotic and for the first time in my life I have refused to do what my dr. told me. She was stunned and said, "so you are refusing treatment?" I confindently said YES b/c I really don't want to take any antibiotics!! I'm positive that if I stay on the raw food diet that small problem that I probably never would have noticied anyway will soon be gone, if it hasn't already!
I started off my morning with some lemon water and cayenne pepper while I made some fresh orange juice. It was really bitter and next time I think I'm gonna heat it up! I got daring for lunch and decided to have some of those "Birds Eye SteamFresh" veggies in a bag that you just pop in the the microwave and a few vegan dumplings with some spinach noodles. I had a HEAPING plate full and knew I could not eat it all and I didn't want to try either! I chowed down and left about 1/2 on my plate. I felt yucky and weighed down afterward and man did my tummy hurt. Even though I bought one box of dumplings and 3 boxes of noodles I may be throwing them away b/c I seem to do a LOT better with raw than I do with cooked vegan.
I don't really crave anything besides salad so I guess that's a good thing, huh?
I've been really bored today for some reason and can't seem to find anything to keep me preoccupied. I've had food on my mind all day which is not a good thing, so I've been trying to keep myself busy...........its not working so far.
My detox symptoms are still present, by that I mean the zits............AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH the zits!!!! They are going to be the death of me. I look like a pepperoni pizza and can't do ANYTHING about it!! I'll just deal with it until my detox symptoms start to slow down, I have to I have no other choice, right?
Oh, on a good note I'm down to 165!! So I'm still losing weight, YAY!
I made my first green smoothie today too. It was a mango/kale smoothie. It called for one cup of kale, one mango and one cup of water.......said it yielded 1 quart, I think it was a misprint b/c it only gave me 16 oz and I put a whole leaf of kale and not just one cup. It was VERY green and almost too green, I think next time I won't alter the directions so drastically, maybe a half of a leaf instead of the whole thing........but the mango was so big I figured all i would taste was the mango and no green, but i think that was the point LOL.
Its just a trial and error period, just finding out what works and what doesn't. I'm learning and to be honest its sort of fun!!!
Today's Eats:
72 + oz of pure water (throughout the day)
2 whole oranges (juiced)
1 serving of vegan spinach noodles, 1/2 serving of seamfresh veggies, 3 vegan dumplings
1 green smoothie (mango/kale)
2 servings of dehydrated veggie chips
a few cherry tomatoes throughout the day
1 large (not HUGE this time) mixed salad with Braggs salad dressing
P.S.
My dr. called me back today to let me know the results of my papsmear and it was negative but she said I had a little bit of a bacterial infection. I thought for a second and realized that I was right in the middle of my MC when I went for my exam which probably caused the positive bacteria, since it was being released. She said that she was going to call me in a perscription and it was an antibiotic and for the first time in my life I have refused to do what my dr. told me. She was stunned and said, "so you are refusing treatment?" I confindently said YES b/c I really don't want to take any antibiotics!! I'm positive that if I stay on the raw food diet that small problem that I probably never would have noticied anyway will soon be gone, if it hasn't already!
Monday, September 7, 2009
Day 22 Making new friends with food
As you can tell I keep dating my post like I'm still on the cleanse for a good reason. In my mind I'm still on a cleanse even though I'm not drinking my SWF and 8 glasses of lemonade, I'm still cleansing myself on a daily basis. So just because the MC is officially over doesn't mean my transition has to be.
I woke up this morning to a complex: What to eat??????
I had been to the grocery store over the weekend to get stuff for work like veggie chips, dehydrated fruit and salad greens but nothing to really eat. I figured I was going to be on the OJ for at least 2 days so I really didn't plan that far ahead. After my awful experience with the chicken noodle last night I really don't want any process foods (I didn't last night either but kinda had no choice). I'm surprisingly craving greens, tomatoes (which isn't odd for me), avocados and fruit!!
I had purchased a book called Green Smoothie Revolution by Victoria Boutenko and read it amongst other Raw Vegan books while I was on my cleanse. I picked out the first 4 green smoothies listed in the book to make and headed to the grocery store without eating a thing (I'm usually not hungry first thing in the morning anyway plus I'm learning to listen to my body so I only eat when it tells me to). Once I was there I was in the fresh produce section and man every thing smelled so good! But first I stopped by the Vegan section and picked up some spinach noodles, some dumplings and 2 other kinds of vegan noodles to mix things up since I'm shooting for 50% raw (even though so far I've been 95-100% raw YAY!!)
I loaded up on some mango, kale, celery, ginger root, peaches, pineapple, cantaloupe, parsley, cucumber, apples, avocados, tomatoes, vegan coconut bars and banana's (all organic of coarse). They had everything I needed except the dandelion greens, I guess they were out. I got home and wanted to make a green smoothie so bad but knew I only had enough to make starting tomorrow through Friday. I did a MAJOR cleaning on my refrigerator and made room for all my new friends and found a recent bottle of "green machine" by Naked juice. There was my answer to my green drink for today. I used to drink those all the time b/c they were packed full of super green foods like spirulina, chlorella, barley grass, wheat grass, blue green algae and it tasted good! Listen at me I sound like a raw food guru already LOL!
I haven't eaten anything yet as I just finished off my Naked juice but my next meal will be a yummy salad with some tomatoes!! I just can't believe how easy this is becoming and all along in my head I've thought it was going to be so difficult to change and how expensive it was going to be. I stocked up on some produce today and it would have only been like $60 if I hadn't bought the cooked vegan noodles and dumplings which brought it up to $90. I guess when you get your mind away from the bad stuff and gear your brain toward the goodness and get your body to where it actually craves what it really NEEDS this raw stuff becomes very simple! I used to spend loads of money on organic produce only to let it sit in the fridge and spoil. Why??? Because even though I knew I needed to eat healthy and I made it easily available, I really didn't crave it so when I went to reach for food (which I did often as an over eater) it was the hot dogs or the TV dinners..............my addiction to crap had taken over. Ahhh, talking like my addiction and overeating are a thing of the past really gives me a sense of accomplishment.............but I'm not out of the woods yet! Its a long process and a relapse is a very real thing that I've experienced too many times, so I'm just taking things one day at a time.
I'm looking forward to my new lifestyle, I actually feel true excitement for the first time in a long time and IT FEELS GRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT!
Todays eats:
48oz pure water
15.2 oz of green machine Naked juice
1 HUGE salad with spring mix greens and baby spinich, cherry tomatoes and Braggs salad dressing
may have some peppermint tea before going to bed
PS I had my first solid BM today YAY
O and I started the probiotics last night at work once I ate the chickenless chicken noodle soup.
I woke up this morning to a complex: What to eat??????
I had been to the grocery store over the weekend to get stuff for work like veggie chips, dehydrated fruit and salad greens but nothing to really eat. I figured I was going to be on the OJ for at least 2 days so I really didn't plan that far ahead. After my awful experience with the chicken noodle last night I really don't want any process foods (I didn't last night either but kinda had no choice). I'm surprisingly craving greens, tomatoes (which isn't odd for me), avocados and fruit!!
I had purchased a book called Green Smoothie Revolution by Victoria Boutenko and read it amongst other Raw Vegan books while I was on my cleanse. I picked out the first 4 green smoothies listed in the book to make and headed to the grocery store without eating a thing (I'm usually not hungry first thing in the morning anyway plus I'm learning to listen to my body so I only eat when it tells me to). Once I was there I was in the fresh produce section and man every thing smelled so good! But first I stopped by the Vegan section and picked up some spinach noodles, some dumplings and 2 other kinds of vegan noodles to mix things up since I'm shooting for 50% raw (even though so far I've been 95-100% raw YAY!!)
I loaded up on some mango, kale, celery, ginger root, peaches, pineapple, cantaloupe, parsley, cucumber, apples, avocados, tomatoes, vegan coconut bars and banana's (all organic of coarse). They had everything I needed except the dandelion greens, I guess they were out. I got home and wanted to make a green smoothie so bad but knew I only had enough to make starting tomorrow through Friday. I did a MAJOR cleaning on my refrigerator and made room for all my new friends and found a recent bottle of "green machine" by Naked juice. There was my answer to my green drink for today. I used to drink those all the time b/c they were packed full of super green foods like spirulina, chlorella, barley grass, wheat grass, blue green algae and it tasted good! Listen at me I sound like a raw food guru already LOL!
I haven't eaten anything yet as I just finished off my Naked juice but my next meal will be a yummy salad with some tomatoes!! I just can't believe how easy this is becoming and all along in my head I've thought it was going to be so difficult to change and how expensive it was going to be. I stocked up on some produce today and it would have only been like $60 if I hadn't bought the cooked vegan noodles and dumplings which brought it up to $90. I guess when you get your mind away from the bad stuff and gear your brain toward the goodness and get your body to where it actually craves what it really NEEDS this raw stuff becomes very simple! I used to spend loads of money on organic produce only to let it sit in the fridge and spoil. Why??? Because even though I knew I needed to eat healthy and I made it easily available, I really didn't crave it so when I went to reach for food (which I did often as an over eater) it was the hot dogs or the TV dinners..............my addiction to crap had taken over. Ahhh, talking like my addiction and overeating are a thing of the past really gives me a sense of accomplishment.............but I'm not out of the woods yet! Its a long process and a relapse is a very real thing that I've experienced too many times, so I'm just taking things one day at a time.
I'm looking forward to my new lifestyle, I actually feel true excitement for the first time in a long time and IT FEELS GRRRRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTT!
Todays eats:
48oz pure water
15.2 oz of green machine Naked juice
1 HUGE salad with spring mix greens and baby spinich, cherry tomatoes and Braggs salad dressing
may have some peppermint tea before going to bed
PS I had my first solid BM today YAY
O and I started the probiotics last night at work once I ate the chickenless chicken noodle soup.
Day 21 Breaking the fast
I'm scared to death!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've disciplined myself to not touch anything except what's on the MC and now its time to have the OJ and I'm beside myself.
I juiced 3 oranges this morning and smelled it for like 5 minutes before I got the nerve up to take a drink. I know it sounds silly but my body has been used to the lemonade and was afraid the OJ was going to kill my stomach. Well the OJ was HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've never tasted anything so sweet and yummy in my life!!!!! Needless to say it savored every drink until the last bit!
I have to go to work tonight so this will be challenging to break the fast and try not to grab the first thing I can shove into my mouth.
I weighed in today at 167 and measured: I've lost 1 in in my arms, 4 inches in my waist, 3 in my thighs and 1 in my chest!!! I'm excited!
LATER on that night: Ok so I thought I made enough orange juice to last all night............NOT! I had enough to last till 9pm. I was drinking so much OJ b/c it just wasn't keeping me full like the lemonade was. I knew I couldn't last the whole 2 days off OJ like the book outlines. For one I was out of oranges and for 2 I had no way of leaving the hospital to get any and 3 even if I could leave who was going to be open at 11 on a Sunday night. SOOOOOOO, I did something I REALLY didn't want to do and that was eat some chicken noodle soup from the patient cabinet. It was a very small can, about half the size of a normal can. I heated it up and sipped the broth. It tasted kinda funny but ok. I did burn my tongue though ouch! I wasn't going to eat the noodles b/c they were made of eggs and I definitely fished out the chicken and threw it away. Once I reached the bottom of the cup I had to try........so I ate the noodles and YUCK they were awful!!!!!!!!!!! Never in my life have I ever NOT liked chicken noodle!! I can really tell my taste buds have changed, for the better!!
After the chicken noodle I felt heavy and weird. It didn't hurt my stomach but I did burp up acid chicken broth for a while, that was yummy, let me tell ya! Since that decided to stay down I went for the mixed green salad I had brought with my raw vegan organic salad dressing and homegrown tomatoes (I had been eyeing since the beginning of my cleanse) at lunch (about 1am) OMG I have never tasted greens like that. Its like this cleanse has re-awakened my taste buds! I've always been a salad eater but not because I love the taste but b/c I didn't MIND the taste and I knew they were good for me. But now I LOVE the way greens taste, AMAZING!!! I enjoyed every bite and chewed very slowly, I even licked my bowl when I was done LOL! I even brought some dehydrated veggie chips (various vegetables dehydrated with sea salt) and laid into those when I was done. I made sure not to over eat and save some chips for a snack at 5.
Everything stayed down just fine and my stomach didn't hurt at all, so it looks like I didn't do things too fast then! After my lunch I felt wonderful, I had energy and didn't feel weighed down, heavy or weird. Its such a wonderful thing to feel that way especially after a meal!!
Todays eats:
70 oz of pure water (throughout the day/night)
48 oz of fresh squeezed orange juice (split up into 3 servings)
240ml of chicken noodle soup (without the chicken)
medium mix spring salad with Braggs salad dressing, 2 homegrown tomatoes
3/4 of a 1qt ziplock bag full of veggie chips (1/2 eaten at lunch, 1/2 eaten as snack)
I juiced 3 oranges this morning and smelled it for like 5 minutes before I got the nerve up to take a drink. I know it sounds silly but my body has been used to the lemonade and was afraid the OJ was going to kill my stomach. Well the OJ was HEAVEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I've never tasted anything so sweet and yummy in my life!!!!! Needless to say it savored every drink until the last bit!
I have to go to work tonight so this will be challenging to break the fast and try not to grab the first thing I can shove into my mouth.
I weighed in today at 167 and measured: I've lost 1 in in my arms, 4 inches in my waist, 3 in my thighs and 1 in my chest!!! I'm excited!
LATER on that night: Ok so I thought I made enough orange juice to last all night............NOT! I had enough to last till 9pm. I was drinking so much OJ b/c it just wasn't keeping me full like the lemonade was. I knew I couldn't last the whole 2 days off OJ like the book outlines. For one I was out of oranges and for 2 I had no way of leaving the hospital to get any and 3 even if I could leave who was going to be open at 11 on a Sunday night. SOOOOOOO, I did something I REALLY didn't want to do and that was eat some chicken noodle soup from the patient cabinet. It was a very small can, about half the size of a normal can. I heated it up and sipped the broth. It tasted kinda funny but ok. I did burn my tongue though ouch! I wasn't going to eat the noodles b/c they were made of eggs and I definitely fished out the chicken and threw it away. Once I reached the bottom of the cup I had to try........so I ate the noodles and YUCK they were awful!!!!!!!!!!! Never in my life have I ever NOT liked chicken noodle!! I can really tell my taste buds have changed, for the better!!
After the chicken noodle I felt heavy and weird. It didn't hurt my stomach but I did burp up acid chicken broth for a while, that was yummy, let me tell ya! Since that decided to stay down I went for the mixed green salad I had brought with my raw vegan organic salad dressing and homegrown tomatoes (I had been eyeing since the beginning of my cleanse) at lunch (about 1am) OMG I have never tasted greens like that. Its like this cleanse has re-awakened my taste buds! I've always been a salad eater but not because I love the taste but b/c I didn't MIND the taste and I knew they were good for me. But now I LOVE the way greens taste, AMAZING!!! I enjoyed every bite and chewed very slowly, I even licked my bowl when I was done LOL! I even brought some dehydrated veggie chips (various vegetables dehydrated with sea salt) and laid into those when I was done. I made sure not to over eat and save some chips for a snack at 5.
Everything stayed down just fine and my stomach didn't hurt at all, so it looks like I didn't do things too fast then! After my lunch I felt wonderful, I had energy and didn't feel weighed down, heavy or weird. Its such a wonderful thing to feel that way especially after a meal!!
Todays eats:
70 oz of pure water (throughout the day/night)
48 oz of fresh squeezed orange juice (split up into 3 servings)
240ml of chicken noodle soup (without the chicken)
medium mix spring salad with Braggs salad dressing, 2 homegrown tomatoes
3/4 of a 1qt ziplock bag full of veggie chips (1/2 eaten at lunch, 1/2 eaten as snack)
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Days 16 through 20
Everything has been basically the same since day 15. I've stayed in a very good mood but unfortunately have not lost a single pound since day 15 but the physical changes are amazing. I have lost so many inches I'm fitting into clothes I've not been able to fit into since I was 160 and I'm 7 lbs heavier than that. My face is smaller, my cellulite on the fronts and backs of my legs are barely noticeable. I have a flat stomach and I only have one small roll of fat on my back......lets just say its a line now, I'm SOOOO HAPPY.
The bad news is my breakouts have gotten SO much worse since day 6. I have like 40 zits under my chin, on my neck, my chest and all over my face. I honestly can't take the breakouts anymore!! I know the book says to welcome every zit b/c it just means the toxins are coming out. I do want them to come out just not all over my face neck and chest to the point I want to walk around with a bag over my head.
I'm very proud of myself for staying strong through all 20 days!!! YAY, Go ME!! I have had some major temptations though, like at work we had a going away party and we had fresh veggies, a meat/cheese tray and mini sub sandwiches................I wanted to dig in so bad but stayed strong!! And check this out, I asked one of the girls to just let me smell her pepperoni off the meat tray, since I've have such strong cravings for pepperoni. She looked at me funny but I said seriously just hold it and let me smell it. I took a big deep breath and had a huge whiff and guess what....................I DIDN'T WANT IT anymore. I appreciated the smell and didn't even think of eating it.
Today is day 20 and I'm sort of scared to start eating again b/c I'm afraid of loosing this wonderful feeling and awesome good mood all the time. I have been torn as to how I'm going to eat after today: am I going to be 100% raw, 75%, 50% or what. Well, I finally decided to be 50% raw b/c this is a PROCESS and if I jump all over it and think I can't eat this or that then I will fail so I need to give myself some leeway.
I went to the grocery store today and loaded up on salad stuff, more lemons, a bag of oranges and some dehydrated veggies. My boyfriend stopped by Sonic and ordered a chicken sandwich with tots and surprisingly I don't even care for that stuff anymore. Everything on the menu looked fake...........like my mind has associated that kind of food as "not real" almost like plastic fruit LOL. It did smell good but the thought of eating it surprisingly turned my stomach, that is REALLY good!! For the past few days I've really not even favored the thought of eating anything but I know its time!
Update: Since I have been drinking my lemonade through a straw and swishing my mouth with water after every drink my sensitive tooth has stopped hurting. And the "funk" on top of my foot is still there, I know I said I would keep going until it was gone but hopefully by changing my lifestyle it will go away with time. It is a whole lot lighter than it has ever been though.
Well this has been a wonderful journey and 6 months from now I will be doing it again. I will try and keep updated when I can. Since I know what it feels like to really feel this good I'm not ever going back to my old eating habits.............its going to be one day at a time but as long as I can keep reminding myself that even though its expensive, its so worth it to feel this good. From now on food will be my priority when pay day comes instead of bills like it has been for the past 5 years. I function better and my health and happiness is way more important than bills..........Just keep it simple!
The bad news is my breakouts have gotten SO much worse since day 6. I have like 40 zits under my chin, on my neck, my chest and all over my face. I honestly can't take the breakouts anymore!! I know the book says to welcome every zit b/c it just means the toxins are coming out. I do want them to come out just not all over my face neck and chest to the point I want to walk around with a bag over my head.
I'm very proud of myself for staying strong through all 20 days!!! YAY, Go ME!! I have had some major temptations though, like at work we had a going away party and we had fresh veggies, a meat/cheese tray and mini sub sandwiches................I wanted to dig in so bad but stayed strong!! And check this out, I asked one of the girls to just let me smell her pepperoni off the meat tray, since I've have such strong cravings for pepperoni. She looked at me funny but I said seriously just hold it and let me smell it. I took a big deep breath and had a huge whiff and guess what....................I DIDN'T WANT IT anymore. I appreciated the smell and didn't even think of eating it.
Today is day 20 and I'm sort of scared to start eating again b/c I'm afraid of loosing this wonderful feeling and awesome good mood all the time. I have been torn as to how I'm going to eat after today: am I going to be 100% raw, 75%, 50% or what. Well, I finally decided to be 50% raw b/c this is a PROCESS and if I jump all over it and think I can't eat this or that then I will fail so I need to give myself some leeway.
I went to the grocery store today and loaded up on salad stuff, more lemons, a bag of oranges and some dehydrated veggies. My boyfriend stopped by Sonic and ordered a chicken sandwich with tots and surprisingly I don't even care for that stuff anymore. Everything on the menu looked fake...........like my mind has associated that kind of food as "not real" almost like plastic fruit LOL. It did smell good but the thought of eating it surprisingly turned my stomach, that is REALLY good!! For the past few days I've really not even favored the thought of eating anything but I know its time!
Update: Since I have been drinking my lemonade through a straw and swishing my mouth with water after every drink my sensitive tooth has stopped hurting. And the "funk" on top of my foot is still there, I know I said I would keep going until it was gone but hopefully by changing my lifestyle it will go away with time. It is a whole lot lighter than it has ever been though.
Well this has been a wonderful journey and 6 months from now I will be doing it again. I will try and keep updated when I can. Since I know what it feels like to really feel this good I'm not ever going back to my old eating habits.............its going to be one day at a time but as long as I can keep reminding myself that even though its expensive, its so worth it to feel this good. From now on food will be my priority when pay day comes instead of bills like it has been for the past 5 years. I function better and my health and happiness is way more important than bills..........Just keep it simple!
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