Update on day 30

So I've been sitting here reading up on the ye ole raw food/living lifestyle. Everyone seems to have a different "truth" as to where most of your calories come from, some say from fruits, others say from fats to be able to sustain raw veganism long term. SO WHICH IS IT?????????????? I suppose it's just like any other "diet" that everyone has their own opinion of the truth but what is the REAL truth?? I've read that you don't need to count calories on a raw vegan diet and then I read somewhere else that you do, then you need to limit your intake of sweet fruits, then you need to limit your intake of fats like nut, seeds, and avocados. Better yet I've read that you should avoid processing any of your foods to make more complex dishes and eat all your raw foods whole....................SERIOUSLY????????????? That takes all the fun out of raw food and it would get very boring very quickly!!

Sometimes I think I'm too smart for my own good. I read and research and read and research some more b/c I like to have a good range of information as I go through any process or big change like this and I like to be well informed but now I'm just down right CONFUSED!!

So keeping that in mind and thinking "well maybe that's why I haven't lost any more weight is b/c I'm not getting enough calories and my body is holding onto all my fat" but as I type that I just thought maybe my body is holding onto all that fat b/c I'm not getting enough fat.........................delema ey! Anyway I thought that I wasn't getting enough calories so I decided to eat a serving of spinach noodles and a carrot. Then I went to a website called calorie count.com and tallied up my calories just for today............HOLY CRAP I'm already up to 1800 and I set up a profile and it says I only need 1600. But as I write everything out I notice most of my calories come from fruit, in some opinions this is good but others this is bad............HELP if you have any suggestions please let me know b/c I'm driving myself crazy right now. Maybe I shouldn't be such a perfectionist huh LOL I just want whats best and what can actually sustain!