Day 4

Wow I can't believe I've made it this far!!! I did a juice fast (feast) in 07 and only made it to day 3 and caved in but with this cleanse I've made it to day 4 GO ME!!
I did, however, think I was going to have to quit after today under no fault of my own. I went to the local (well not so local for me it's 20 min away) organic grocery store (the only one in town) and they were COMPLETELY out of lemons, completely. Their trucks were not on schedule and the one that was out back had no lemons on it. So the guy took my name and number and said that when the next truck came in either tonight or tomorrow morning he would let me know.
I asked an associate there and she said to try the organic lemon juice and even though I told her what I was doing she advised me that she had done many cleanses and the whole purpose of a cleanse is to get away from having your mind set on only one way to do things. Kind of like being set in your ways I suppose. I did take her advise into consideration and I do agree to "let go" of your standard way of thinking and be more open but I'm also very meticulate and I have been following the directions of the Master Cleanse to the T and do not want to stray now.
They found one LARGE lemon (this sucker was bigger than an orange) for me and showed me where the organic lemon juice was. So I bought 2 of the lemon juices enough for tomorrow and hopefully they will call me before I go into work that way I can stop by and get some more.
Well last night was another crazy BM night, I wound up having one at 11 one at 12 one at 1 and another at 7. Needless to say it was a rough night.
Today I made my batch for 8 drinks so YAY for me! Personally I believe that if I can just do the minimum of 6 I will be ok but if I have room for 8 then the more the merrier but I don't think I really need more than 8, seriously.
I'm still having some sinus issues like sneezing and a slightly runny nose with the drainage down the back of my throat. My tongue still has a thick white coat but I think it's beginning to lighten up some, but I could be mistaken. I don't feel as tired today as I have been and I've actually been out of the house most of the day and I'm in a GOOD mood. I'm starting to feel like me again and this feels SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WONDERFUL!! I've noticed that my thoughts tend be positive and happy; when before I would just lay in bed and my mind would drift toward things that would seriously piss me off and get me upset. I just figured it was part of being unhappy and depressed. I honestly can tell a HUGE difference in the way I feel and how I think. Which in turn affects how I act and speak. I've not cussed, I've kept my cool, I've only been moody the other night when I couldn't sleep and was in pain, I'm relaxed and not tense, I'm happy and carefree just like the old me, or should I say the "REAL ME". I've also noticed myself laughing quite a bit today and since I've been in this "funk" for the past 5 years I've not done much of anything except gripe, complain, cuss, be mad, angry, procrastinating, lazy, unmotivated, hateful, depressed, tired, lethargic, grumpy old woman!! Wow, I never want to be that again EVER, I can't wait to see what day 20 brings my way and what a world of living actually feels like. I'm going 100% raw vegan when this is all done. I've tried to transition to raw before by doing a juice fast in 07 but when I caved in on day 3 I dove right into a huge meat barbecue so obviously that didn't go over too well. I'm ready and prepared this time that's why I'm doing a full 20 days. The book says a minimum of 10 but on 20 you reach dealing with your food addiction on an emotional level and it opens you up on a spiritual level so I'm awaiting the day so I can go straight to raw foods and never miss the crap food.
Before I went on this cleanse I had already mostly kicked my Coca cola habit I was on day 26 without one when I started this. So that was my only caffeine "habit", now every once in a while I would fix a cup of coffee when I would get to work to kind of kick start my night but it wasn't an every night thing and I would never drink coffee outside of work unless it was a cold or frozen coffee drink, and even those were very few and far between.
Well anyway, today has been a great day and I hope it just keeps getting better. Tomorrow is the true test of strength its Work Time and I get to spend a full 12 hours around Coke, Sodas, Chips, Snacks, Pizza, Take-Out, and plain out Junk Food...........ahhhh gotta love hospitals ey? Well Wish Me LUCK!